Masking My Emotional Pain; Burying it Deep Within

Loneliness is different than being alone. Being alone is something I can enjoy, but the feeling of being the outcast and not wanted is a horrible feeling. The thought that the people you once cared deeply for no longer care for you is an emotional hurt that is hard to explain…

…I hate to cry; absolutely hate it. I do not want to draw attention to myself for being sad (or depressed) and invite a pity party. I hate feeling vulnerable, but moments like this are hard to cope with. I try hard to shove those bad feelings down deep and hide how I feel from everyone around me.